dropped/cut

I can't stop crying i don't know what to do. I had 4 houses last night and 3 I really really saw my self in. They weren't all top or the most popular but I was 100% content with them. Today I got my schedule back and had ONE house left and it was the ONE I just 100% could never see myself in. I didn't even put on my pref dress which I saved up pretty much all summer to buy that was supposed to be worn tonight. I came from out of state and I never thought I would be this miserable. I didn't think I would care so much but no one prepares you for this kind of rejection. I sincerely just want to transfer back to the school in my home state at this point. That sounds ridiculous but I had such high hopes for my freshman year and the year hasn't even started and I already want to leave. I have no friends here and thought Greek life was going to help me find my home. The house I had left was not my home. They tell you over and over to Trust the process but I know myself better than whatever this stupid process is obviously. Tomorrow is going to worse than today, all the girls running around all happy with their new sisters while I'm alone in my dorm....

Correct me if I am wrong, but you cannot be forced to sign a bid card tomorrow. If you had only one house today, you could get that house tomorrow, OR could have a house from the day before. That's a snap bid. So you can still get one of the houses you want. So I'd open the bid card and see. But you can drop. I see lots of snaps tomorrow so there is hope!

Also, join organizations! You can create great friendships and meet people that way too! Greek life is great, but you have to do what's best for you.

My Gamma Chi told me that I had to accept both invites and if I received a bid I had to accept it and there was a form/contract that I was told I had to sign today that confirmed this. That is why I am sitting in my dorm room tonight.

I am wrong. I did not know that they had you sign something tonight. You are doing what you believe is best. Since you didn't sign that contract you can do COB or rush next year or elsewhere if you do transfer. But I really encourage you to look into joining organizations before transferring. And jump head first into all the fun things state has.

While skiing is fun, it's not Greek life. I haven't even had the nerve to call my grandmother yet and tell her I'm not going to be in her sorority. She was so proud of me for being asked back each day. She kept saying "your a legacy, and that means something." Don't get me wrong I'm happy to get a bid tomorrow, but neither of the houses are what I really want. I can't believe I'm saying this. I wish I would have just dropped out