Wish my life could have been different sometimes

I wish I had another life at times, instead of going through so much weird and odd experiences, interacting with people who are just out to use my for their benefit, I want to be my own boss and live a good life with a beautiful woman by my side! Is that too much to ask? Instead I have to deal with people’s BS on a daily, slaving away at the lab for grad school, I want it to end and I want to be in control and to benefit myself instead of others who are just using me and acting like they are my friends. The matrix is fake af and I’m sick and tired of it. I want to be unlocked like a region free DVD drive firmware that is flashed to unlock the universe! I’m already going down the rabbithole and have taken the red pill so I’m aware and know how the world really works! This is what I want! Is that too much to ask?