should i drop alpha phi ?

I'm in a bit of a bind right now, I met with alpha phi along with two other sororities for preference and knew for a fact I could not fit in at aphi. I even told the girls that so they would not waste a bid on me. I could see myself at my top two easily and even had conversations with the girls from both sororities about how much I wanted to Be there. I ended up putting aphi as my third choice, even though I considered not maximizing just because I knew I wouldn't be a good fit there. Bid day rolled around and I saw my card and my heart dropped. I tried to make the best of it last night, but the girls I encountered just proved to me it wasn't a good place for me. Most of my conversations were awkward and the ones that weren't were about boys or partying.

I'm not a big partier, I'm not boy crazy, and most of all I care tremendously about my gpa and it seems like they don't as a whole. Idk what resources they have to help me, but Idk if I'll even make it that long to have to find out.

Idk what to do in this situation. Everyone else was so happy to run to their bid day buddies yesterday and I was just so sad. I want to give them a shot, but I'm worried this is the worst thing I can do.