advice? don't know how to feel about my sorority

i joined a sorority through COB last year and i really connected with one girl which is why i ended up joining. i love her so much but prior to joining a sorority i didn't do any research and ended up joining a "bottom" tier sorority. i know its toxic but i've been reading on greek rank so much and it just sucks to feel irrelevant. i joined a sorority to be apart of a bigger community (sorirty/greek life in general) and honestly i feel like i dont connect with my sorority much, aside from that one girl. i can tell everyone cares about me i just dont know how to get past the idea that everyone outside my sorority is looking down on my sorority and me. i dont know how to feel or what to do. especially seeing people post going through recruitment and talking about how they hate the bottom tier sororities, or even feeling that no body wants to join us really sucks. i could even feel that new pnms reluctant to chat or join us, like i felt unwanted and stupid for doing COB and joining a "bad" sorority.