post-rush has been hard

I rushed as a second year and didn't get in anywhere despite all my friends in sororities rn saying they'd help. i get that they prob didn't have a huge say, but every single person in my friend group joined one and now I've been feeling super left out bc every weekend they've been going to mixers and doing sorority stuff. a lot of my guy friends stopped talking to me or putting me on the lists to their parties bc I'm not in a sorority and they think I must be "weird" if I didn't get into one. a lot of my relatives have been judging me bc I didn't join greek life like they did. I've always looked forward to joining a sorority and finding my sisterhood because my mom and grandma had such amazing experiences, one I will never have now. I haven't seen a lot of my friends because they've been busy with sorority stuff and its rlly been making me feel lonely. I really don't understand why I did not get in anywhere- Im nice and I thought I had so many great conversations. now, for the past month, I've just been spending a lot of my time by myself and I rlly hate the rush process at uva /: