sometimes

Does anyone else who did spring feel that way?

Yeah^ I definitely agree, I still love my house, but I can't help but wonder, ya know? You can't help but wonder sometimes, would you still have ended up in the same house etc.?

I don't really care that I didn't go through FFR except I feel like I missed out with bonding with PNMs etc and the excitement of it all

I wouldn't worry too much about it. I love my sorority and I wouldn't have ended up there if I didn't do FFR, but FFR was also hell for me. I didn't bond too much with my PNM group either - that really varies from person to person. Fall Recruitment is such a crapshoot anyway - my freshman year roommate did recruitment twice and had completely different results both times. I think there's about five chapters I could have been happy with, and tbh in any given year I could have ended up in any of them.

I couldn't do FFR completely due to schedule conflicts so I missed out on many houses and many houses just dropped me. I was going to do Spring rush this semester but then the "what if" thought hit me so I'll be doing FFR next year

I did FFR and it was absolute torture to go through but I'm happy with where I ended up and even though it sucks and it's constant stress for like five days, it's totally worth it