dropping my sorority - please help!

Hello,

I've been tossing and turning all night, and I need some anonymous guidance. I recently joined a chapter, and I'm not really happy. The picture painted for me during recruitment ended up not being entirely truthful. I've found my chapter to be very clique-y, and very mean/fake. I don't think I can trust any of these girls, and I just feel alone even though I'm surrounded by girls that claim to "love me".

In your opinions, do you think I should drop before my big continues making things for me? I don't want to waste her time, especially after hearing my family talk crap about wasting their time on their littles that just ended up dropping. They're really mean about it and I'm really scared about becoming one of the girls that they hate for dropping. I just don't feel a sense of family in these girls. I don't know if I should just stick it out and hope for the best or just drop now.

If I do drop, will I be able to rush again? I don't know how any of this works..

I really have nowhere to ask. The Rho Gam that I really liked is actually in my chapter, and even she is acting differently and more sketchy. The other rho gam turned me off from the beginning. I don't know what to do!!!