thinking of dropping

orgs make all these promises in the beginning of the year but once you’re in they forget about you. the first week everyone was very welcoming before big little, but once i got my big who doesn’t even talk to me and who was my last choice, nobody in the org talks to me at all. i try to reach out and hang w people but everyone already has their own friends and are very standoffish. everybody was so kind in the beginning commenting on pics and everything but now i feel like i’m not even in the org. hoping things will change if we go in person but now i’m hearing we’re not? i don’t really want to pay hundreds of dollars for online meetings. conflicted