really starting to dislike theta...

Hi guys, first of all, let me just say that I've had a lot of good conversations with Theta girls and there's a lot of them I really like. On the other hand, though, I'm not having that much fun and I'm dreading having to pay lots of money in dues to stay in a sorority I'm not in love with. I feel bad saying it, but part of it is due to their reputation on campus. I don't feel proud wearing their letters, I just kind of feel like a top 3 reject. During rush I told myself if I didn't get top 3 I'd drop, but I stuck with it and here I am. Every time I see girls wearing letters from cooler sororities I kind of get a pit in my stomach and it makes me just want to drop altogether. I know this is a little mean but I figure this is what this site is for since it's anonymous. Any advice?